If At First…

I’d like to share some good news.  Yesterday, I heard from an editor at a literary magazine that the revision of a story I’d sent them made the cut.  “We loved it!” she wrote.  Contract in the mail.  Wow! Yay! Yippee!  And Phew!

It’s not always easy to share good news—and on a blog: Will it look self-congratulatory?  Gloating?  Self-promotional?  Slow down, I tell myself; it’s not as if I won the Pulitzer.

Still, acceptance of short literary fiction is no easy feat, and the fact that it’s taken me almost an hour to write the two brief paragraphs you just read—I had to shower, change the bathroom towels, do a load of laundry, and make the bed, right?—speaks to more, perhaps, than my reluctance to, as my mother might have said, “toot my own horn.”

So why write about it here?

Gratitude, for one thing.  To my writers’ group, to the editor who gave me a second chance, to the process itself (as torturous as it can feel).  You see, the editor had seen (and turned down) an earlier, briefer version of the story, a story I’d been submitting against my better instincts (more on that in a minute), and she’d asked for more.  I sent another story.  She said No again, but with a surprising twist.  Upon further thinking, she and her colleagues would like to publish the first story, but was I open to making some changes?

You bet.  Not only that, but I had a longer, fuller version already written, a version I’d put aside a year ago because I couldn’t figure out how to make it right. My writers’ group had asked for more development of and insight into the narrator’s marriage and occupation.  M pointed out a key metaphor that didn’t quite hold together.  A asked why the narrator, with her obvious lust for a certain character, hadn’t acted on it.  Others didn’t quite get why the betrayal at the heart of the story mattered so much to the narrator’s current life.  I pondered their comments.  I knew they were onto something.  I moved sections around, I made cuts—and then I got drastic. I turned the story into a frame tale, summarizing pages of  present-day narrative into two brief paragraphs at either end of back story  I told myself  that we didn’t need all the material about the narrator’s attraction to a man not her husband, her work making stained glass, her hovering over her daughter’s budding independence.

Oh, yes we did.  My writers’ group had recognized this, intuitively, and I’d known they were right. But I’d felt impatient to finish the thing, to send it out.  And in my impatience, I’d nipped the story in the bud.  I’d sent it out, though, and received a series of nice rejections.  Until this most recent.

So I dug out the earlier, longer versions—a dozen or so of them—and read, made notes.  Turns out, I’d cut some good stuff—and now, with a year’s distance (and the interest of an editor), I saw patterns and changes that fell into place.  Here’s the amazing thing:  I didn’t even need to look (much) at those earlier versions.  I had it in my head.  The changes were relatively smooth to make, and (here’s a first) fun.

I’m grateful to my writers’ group for their honesty, and to this editor for giving me a second chance.  And to a study I heard cited a while back, a study that prompted me to send out the second story after hearing No on the shorter version of the first.  The study found that women writers, after rejection, tend to stop sending out work, even if the rejection is full of encouragement and invitation to send more. We women tend—and this is a generalization, remember—to retreat.  Men, on the other hand, don’t hear “no.”  They keep sending work out.

Publication is not what it’s all about, of course.  I wish more writers worried less about getting published (or getting an agent) and more about making their work the best it can be.  I’m one of them, of course.  And oh so relieved I saved those earlier versions.

What valuable insights have you gained from the unpredictable world of submitting?  Have you ever had a piece published that you should have spent more time on?  Is publication always a good thing?

 

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About lindseycrittenden

Lindsey Crittenden is the author of two published books: THE WATER WILL HOLD YOU: A SKEPTIC LEARNS TO PRAY (Harmony Books, 2007) and THE VIEW FROM BELOW, a collection of short stories (Midlist Press, 1999). Her personal essays and articles – on topics such as prayer, the pitfalls of too much California sunshine, and visiting a group of lifers at San Quentin – have appeared in The New York Times, The San Francisco Chronicle Magazine, Image, Real Simple, Bon Appétit, East Bay Express, Health, and Best American Spiritual Writing. Her fiction has won national awards and has appeared in Glimmer Train, Bellingham Review, Quarterly West, and other publications. Born and raised in the San Francisco Bay Area, she graduated from UC Berkeley, moved to New York City as soon as she could, and returned to California for grad school. While in the graduate creative writing program at UC Davis, she discovered (much to her surprise) the fun of teaching. She lives in San Francisco and teaches at UC Berkeley Extension. She has completed a novel, and is writing new short stories and a (very early stages) nonfiction exploration of spirituality & sex.
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4 Responses to If At First…

  1. Callie Feyen says:

    Congratulations, Lindsey! That’s awesome news! Please let us know when/where it comes out so we can read your work.
    I love hearing the “story behind the story” from authors: how they draft, revise, etc. I am learning that it is important to keep everything because I never know when a few lines or pages might turn into something…..that’s why I have kept all my planners, journals, and high school notes. 🙂
    A big congratulations to you!!

  2. Thank you, Callie! And I hope you post about SPU soon!

  3. Erin Robinson says:

    Hi, Lindsey! Hope this isn’t too creepy…but I’m the editor who accepted your story! I am getting ready to do a presentation for our Literary Magazine class tomorrow, and I was just looking through past authors’ blogs/websites we’ve solicited to give them an idea of what kind of authors we are looking for, and I saw your blog! I loved reading this blog post, and I am so very glad you gave US another chance with your story and the rewrite. We really do love your story. And our magazine is coming out next month, so you will get to see it in print very soon!!

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